Life After Death: Blow Me.

 

29 Birth Days...24 Birth Days celebrated together. 

One of Marc's favorite jokes on his birthday....a cake with a candle captioned with "Blow me". Remembering his humor and how he could turn ANY and EVERY  thing into a dirty joke still makes me shake my head and laugh out loud. 

The birth days are a painful reminder of the death day. Yes, I understand that many of you will find that statement to be morbid or perhaps even twisted sounding. So, feel any way you like about it, does not change the truth of what I have said. Our society is one that celebrates the day of our birth (most do anyway) and once the person has left this world, the celebrations usually end. It seems as though once they have left this world, the day of their birth no longer warrants celebration. Perhaps it is the pain we wish to avoid...the pain of the reminder that the person we loved, celebrated, and cherished is no longer here to join us in the celebration so we .... just .... stop .... celebrating.

Why? Why don't we continue to celebrate the day of their birth? One would think that celebrating their life and the love you had for the person who is gone is a loving way of living with their memory once they have gone. Today, I don't want to cry for the loss of my husband, my friend, my companion. Today I don't want to feel this swelling pain in my chest that I am feeling because this was our day of celebrating the day of his birth, the day of celebrating our life together and our day of celebrating the future ahead of us. 

Yes, I'll still cry today, I'm crying as I type this, but I will also celebrate today. Marc and I would be planning on a nice dinner and brews for his Birth Day. Tonight, I will lift him up in a celebration of his birth and maybe, just maybe, it will help to take away some of the pain in my body of knowing he will never sit next to me again to share a birth day dessert together.... Today I will celebrate and if you would, I hope that you too will celebrate Marc's special day. Anyone who cannot understand my request, well.....all I can say is, blow me.