In our culture we celebrate birthdays, we celebrate anniversaries... we mark the days and we send tidings of love and joy to those celebrating milestones in their lives. I have been trying to tell myself that tomorrow will just be another day if I choose for it to be just another day. Recognizing the anniversary of Marc's death won't do anything to bring him back. If it is just another day, maybe it will end the loop that plays in my mind whenever I find myself back in that night 364 days ago.
Maybe if tomorrow is just another day the nightmare that began 364 days ago will lose its power over my emotions. If tomorrow is just another day maybe I will stop feeling this suffocating pain in my chest. Maybe I can stop feeling like I am yet again losing ground in my healing.... if tomorrow were just another day.......
